Posted by Alex Nnamdi Nwaduba on
OHHH!!!! How i despise the night these days with its stern,impeccable judgemental gaze,picks my pitch black moments of self evaluation to paint lucid images of the wrong choices i've made even though my numerous laudable achievements outnumber those brief moments of plain stupidity,wonder why trying to be idealistic drove me onto the path of inadvertence,left abandoned in this weary,frail ignominious state of consciousness to savour these sharp,painful heartaches even while the odds stood in my favour,another undeniably perfect situation with its beautiful ambience ruined by my inability to be a rational,sublime intellect.
"Inamorata,captivated by unforeseen infatuation
Inane,was the choice i made & the risk i took,all that followed was confusion
Inadequate,was my willpower to save the situation
Inauspicious,was the entire experience from the very inception
Inadvisable,it seemed to continue in such grief,salvaged all that remained of me,left & divided my soul into fractions"
What extent would i have to go to rid myself and be immune to this stereotype human disease called "FLAWS" that comes alive anytime a less than clever choice is made with the excruciating,fiery pain that accompanies them? Why does this thing called flesh drive me back and forth the avenue of insanity in search of pleasure? Why does being human leave me vulnerable to lies & controversy? I'll only become prone to these predicaments over my dead body so therefore....
To whom it might concern and whoever has the power,I plead to possess the peace of the night skies with the absolutely consummate nature of the creatures that embody them,I plead to be as unique,iridescent and unpredictable as the monsoon weather and I plead for a higher form of existence that sets me apart from the average mortal human that struggles with countless,recycled life threatening rhetorical questions so inevitably,Being realistic makes me a pessimist,I've got my own demons so I'm qualified to be my own exorcist,Making mistakes could be a permanent dent on my personality Curriculum Vitae but it only draws me closer to being a perfectionist and If Lady karma after she has punished me for breathing life into my nocturnal fantasies would be truly kind,remembering those unwise choices would only come like flashes of premeditated scenarios that inhabit my imaginations when i reminisce...