Posted by Alex Nnamdi Nwaduba on
LOVE is FICTION,PAIN is REAL,UNCERTAINTY is the mental stimulant that feeds my insecurity but keeps me ever prepared,vigilant,am on my feet...More time to HUSTLE,No time to SLEEP. Naked thoughts of uncertainty crawls around in my mind,longing for the unavoidable ill-fated grip of realism,its only a matter of time before my short-comings come alive. The Perfect fuel for a seemingly profitable endeavour for a lifetime but What if? What if? What if? What if my subtle shortcomings seeks to satisfy its inner thirst & prove its worth over me,suddenly increases rapidly,picks up its pace,catches up & over-takes me,What if just trying to achieve my set-goals is simply a weak excuse to say i TRIED to do so,What if my undying,everlasting search for eternal happiness suddenly comes to an abrupt end & lives me at the dawn of another day questioning all the choices of an average mortal man,What if my untold success story & citation becomes a mere BLUR faced with these numerous earthly adversities...Is there any hope for me? Is there any hope for us? Another case of PESSIMISM. My questions echo back at me at the very second of its utterance,no answers presented at my disposal,all I have to strive ahead is UNCERTAINTY...I perceive a future written in heavenly linen so i work towards perfection. We are all destined for greatness but we are perfectly made imperfect creatures,we are characterised with BAD DECISIONS to our own detriment. I'm driven by the so-called vanities of life : materialism,POWER,excellence,respect,stories of STAGNATION & Failure,Negligence,Bad decisions,Accolades & Remembrance. As I move further on my defining pursuit of Accomplishments with my heart in my mouth ready for any sudden eventuality,all I'm equipped with is my PRIDE,my darling UNCERTAINTY for these apt virtues are self adhesives,glued to my very soul,they serve as my motivation & assurance that despite my unrelenting impugn nature in an unjust world...the OUTCOME will inevitably be INCOME!!!